Addicted to your soul

Addiction took my soul to the gates of hell! Seen nothing but tears and pain! The kind of pain that never goes away. Dragging every little piece of your heart, one by one! Yelling but nobody can hear your cries! Addiction doesn't care who you are. It will take everything you have ever loved. Trying to get away but can't escape. Escape from the only thing that also heals the pain that it caused. Sitting here all alone, in the dark...loving the way the pain hurts. Wishing I never caused pain on my better half, I don't know how to get away from depression and quilt. Seeing you cry from the hurt I'm causing myself, makes me want to love you more! I want to make you my addiction from now on! I want to be addicted to your love. I want to be high on loving you! Only you baby! Want to run and hide but it is the only way out of my own misery. Misery I created out of tears of pain and hurt. Nights of pure hell, pulling every string in my heart. Laying in a puddle of hurtful stabs to my heart. Trumatic memories haunt me during nights of rest. Stealing my sense of peace. Replaying the trail of blood, sweat and tears, realizing I am still fighting for your soul.