Monster within

As I sit here tonight, I sit in silence

loosing a fight i thought I couldnt overcome

All the words, worries, shame and pain...

just left me with nothing to gain!

I have to conquer an enemy thats actually trapped inside of me!

Its been like this for such a long time.

The fleeting thoughts running through my head

Sometimes I think betrayal is so close, It touched my nose.

There is no such thing as a " Happy place".

No I dont have a plan, see I am just doing what I can

and most of the time thats not quite enough.

I mean does anything ever get right for me, I quess we will see.

There is a reason for everything and everything means something.

What exactly? Why do I have my biggest enemy living inside of my head. I swear that monster has a strong grip on my heart.