To whom it may concern

First and foremost, I am honered also very blessed to have met and fell in love with the man God put in my path. Love is teaching the broken how to love. Thank you for trying to help my family by getting him the help and treatment that he needs. In my opinion, jail does not help anybody. It is just another playground for people to escape to, from the outside world. How do you expect a drug addict to become a recovering addict if you don't give them the proper help? How do you expect a depressed person to stop hurting herself if you don't give them the proper counseling? Some people can stop on their own but some need a little help. I know that my s/o is tired of dealing with depression and being angry all the time! Esai has days where his mind thinks of things that are not true or make him feel a certain way about things.

He is the most amazing man I have ever seen and fell in love with. He has a special heart! He has a broken but beautiful heart who has a lot of love to give out but is scared of not being good enough for anyone or anything! I love him so much that I'm willing to do anything so he can get the help he wants and deserves! He will be able to live life with me and my children again but much happier! I know what kind of person he can be when he is happy and not broken! I've seen it, I've lived it with him everyday for the past 3 years. He is just like everyone else in this world, he has feelings and has love but how can he when he wasn't loved or shown how to love the right way!

We both know how it feels to have alcoholic father's and to have a mother who never showed us love if anything, it showed us what love is not. We can love each other past the pain. This man has been nothing but good to me and been there for me and my children more than my family has and the same goes for him, I have been there more than his family has. Him and I have no-one and when I say that, I mean not a soul but at the end of the day, it's just us, God. I refuse to ever give up on him. He has never made me feel unsafe, I always feel loved by my s/o! He and I have been through so much in the past 5 years, enough to bring us closer. .

I am very happy with him in our family! If you could just see us together, you will see how happy we are! My oldest son Brayden has never got close to any man I brought into my life but as soon as he meets Esai, they click like it was magic! They have the most beautiful bond I've ever seen! That is Buddy as my son calls Esai! Brayden asks about him every night, and I don't know what to tell him. He cries himself to sleep for him!

When Brayden got hit by a car back in February 2018, It really messed with "Elsa". His job fired him for not doing the right procedure because he chose to be with Brayden in Egleston Children's hospital for a week! "Elsa" had a hard time dealing with that, we all three did. My son was then placed with a guardian. We are a family and will continue to fight for each other! He has his day when he doesn't feel like talking to me and I know when something is wrong. I still try to talk to him through it! I know he has had more depressing times than the number of smiling days.

2.) Depression turns into anger and anger and pain turns into drug addiction, and drug addiction turns into broken families. If we figure out what started the cycle, there might be less inmates for violence/drugs and more happy families and a more peaceful world.

3.) I always say "If God doesn't give up on you, then why should I". We shouldn't give up on the ones we love, no matter what the situation holds. I will never give up on my fiancee or any addict who needs rehabilitation before incarceration! We need to start reaching out to those who are crying out for help. Some cry out with anger, some cry out in self harm. Others do it in repetitive behavior. Some people substitute one drug for another, anything that is "helping the pain".

There are awesome people behind all the pain and anger. If we offer people who are struggling just like him help and actually help, we will see a huge difference in how our world treats others. We will see a brighter future for generations to come! Now that I have him and a family that I always wanted. I am going to do anything and everything I can to hold on to and cherish what I have been blessed with!

Another thing, it's not just women who get tired. Men get tired too! They get tired of pretending that they are fine but in reality, a woman comes from a man's ribs. Not to be in front of him and not to be behind him, but to be beside him! We give men stability and love! We are to build each other up. I want him to love life, HIS life again because i love him and want nothing but love and happiness and a successful life for our family!

I just found out that my name Nicole, means "Victory to the people"! So I want to live up to my name! Lets reunite families that got torn apart! Torn apart because no one wants to take the time out of their day to see if someone is okay or how they are doing. Well I'm here to tell everyone in the whole world that I want to spend the rest of my life with my better half and my two children. Thank you for your precious time and open-minded hearts. God bless!